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“No, let me go.”
I struggled, slapping Jason hard.
But instead of getting angry, he held me.
tighter.
He seemed crazed, hugging me and talking
nonsense.
“Jess, stop deceiving yourself, you like me.
“You’re with Lucas just to make me angry, to
make me angry that I used him to tease you,
right?
“You’re angry that I knew your feelings but
pretended not to know, Jess, brother was
wrong.
“No, I’m not your brother, let’s start over,
okay?”
Jason was truly insane.
But…
“Jason, I’ve never liked you.”
“Impossible, you’re lying!”
During my time in the mental hospital, I
reflected every day.
What were my feelings for Jason?
Seeing him with other women, I would feel
disappointed and jealous.
I would even go to great lengths to drive them
away.
Moreover, I always sought Jason’s attention.
I almost greedily hoped he would always pay
attention to me.
But these weren’t my own volition.
It was Jason’s manipulation.
He indulged my capriciousness, deliberately
く
giving me a little sweetness when my mind.
was wavering.
When I was doubting myself, he would do
things beyond what a brother would do.
He never refuted or accepted my advances.
It was a premeditated PUA.
From beginning to end, Jason had feelings for
me beyond that of a brother.
He refused to admit it, tormented by his
possessiveness.
He blamed everything on me.
Jason was a coward.
How could I possibly like him?
I pushed him away forcefully, stating his most
shameful secret word by word
“Jason, falling in love with your adoptive
sister is sick.”
After a lifetime, I finally returned the words to
him verbatim.
Jason, who was pressing down on me,
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paused for a moment, his eyes darkening
rapidly.
His hand pulled forcefully.
My clothes tore.
Coldness assaulted my shoulders, and the
devil before me awoke.
Jason grabbed my neck, his fingertips.
pressing down inch by inch.
“Yes, I love you. Every second you’re with
Lucas, I want to drag you back.
“You’ll never leave me.”
