you find your mate, so you are a liability to your pack. If your mate has passed before meeting you, you are forever wolfless. The safest place for you is Outcast because it is neutral ground.
I feel the worst for those wolves. They never meet their other half or their wolf spirit, but many mate with the wolves who have been rejected. They live happily, but they probably always wonder.
Honestly, I hope my mate is in my home pack, but I wouldn’t mind moving. I have no family in my home pack, so I wouldn’t miss anyone. But if my mate is from my home pack and I find him today, I won’t be an omega.
The only omegas who are my age and mateless right now are females. A couple of the omegas who were friends with my parents have young pups. But I’m never around them, and I am much too old to be their mate. So if I find my mate today, I will be mating into a different role, which is weird to think about.
I like being an omega. I like taking care of others. But I also find I have a fiery side, like my mom, who was born a warrior. She became an omega when she mated father, but she trained as a warrior for eighteen years. That’s how she first became friends with Alpha Patrick and Luna Kandace. Luna’s parents are warriors, just like my mothers were.
According to my mother and the other omegas her age, my mom was a savage when it came to fighting. She even made Alpha Patrick submit. But when she got her wolf…her wolf had the characteristics of an omega—a weak body with a kind nurturing spirit.
But my mother didn’t complain. She loved her new role, and she said it balanced her friendship with the Luna. My mom said that before they found their mates, Kandace was very competitive with her. Luna liked Alpha, who crushed on my mom. But mom said she didn’t return the feelings that Alpha had. She was relieved when her mate turned out not to be the Alpha.
The only thing hard for me to swallow is if my mom had gotten the stronger wolf spirit, she might still be here. She might not have had to fight teeth and claws in her stronger but also weaker human body. As wolves, our hide is thicker and can take more damage than our human body. But my mother’s wolf spirit had zero fight, and my mother chose to defend that day in her human flesh.
I smile a bittersweet smile as I clean up my room. I think of my mother’s last moments often, and while I can’t be more proud of her and who she was, I wish she had just run. I wish she had given our enemy what they came for. But that just wouldn’t be my mother. She would have never run…not like someone else I know.
I grind my teeth together at that last thought and slam my makeup box closed a little harder than necessary.
Stupid Luna! If only she had helped. If only she had shifted and used her Alpha wolf spirit. She could have fought side by side with my mother. They would have been able to handle the threat and keep them from doing what they came to do, but instead, my mother died, and only I know why. Only I know what transpired between my mother and our enemies that day. And while she won, she still died.
