Chapter 6
“Protect me? “The rhetorical question escaped my lips before I could stop it.
“Protect me? I questioned again as 1 laughed, but the weird thing w
that tears filled my eyes as I laughed. They weren’t tears of joy, they were tears of sorrow. Tears of pain. I was in pain, but I was still laughing. I was broken, and yet, I found his words. amusing.
“Protect me from what? You? “I questioned further as I stared into his green eyes, and he said nothing as he stared back at me.
“Me? What do you mean? “He questioned me, and my jaw dropped before a chuckle escaped me. I adjusted in my bed before harshly pushing his hand off my shoulder, and he stared at me confused.
“It’s been 2 weeks. Just two weeks since you discovered that I am your mate, Aiden. And in these fourteen days, you have treated me like a rag. In just fourteen days, you have made me feel the most useless, unworthy, incompetent and unloved than I ever felt before now. Not even Carla and her disgusting family could ever hurt me so much.
Aiden, you don’t even have to speak. Your gaze alone. The disgust… The hate. The thirst to hurt me. I see it in your eyes. It’s all you’ve ever shown me in the past fourteen weeks! It’s all your aura emits around me, and that’s without you speaking!
And when you do speak, you tell me how pathetic I am. You tell me how lowly I am, how I am not worthy to be your mate, how insulting it is for me to be your mate, how I can never level up to Carla. “I replied, and I couldn’t stop the tears that fell from my eyes.
The night’s cool breeze swam in my dimly lit room and silence hung heavy between us, but not once did I break my gaze from Aiden’s.
“Celine… “He whispered, but I cut him short..
“I loved you. With everything in me… Right from when I was a little girl, I adored you. Aident
Do you remember? Your birthday party when you clocked 13? You were overwhelmed by all the people swarming around you, and you went to hide in the stables at the pack house. I found you there.
We spent the whole day playing tag and tic–tac–toe together. We even tried fishing with our bare hands and feeding the horses. We didn’t care that the entire palace was looking for you. We were free and happy.
You told me you never had so much fun in your life, and you were glad that I was your friend. You told me that you’ll always make me happy to pay back the happiness I brought you on that day. And honestly, the promise didn’t mean much to me. Just being with you was enough for me. Watching you smile and being able to be happy with you.
But not even up to a year later, you began to pull away. You became a different person. You became proud and ignorant. Suddenly, I wasn’t fit enough to be your friend. I watched you keep being cold to me but still, I couldn’t stop myself from loving you. I watched you lose every memory of whatever friendship or warmth we shared. I became nothing but your subject. But I was still fine. Fine to see you healthy and happy even though I was no longer in the picture.
I went through life alone, yet my consolation were the dreams of you and me that I nursed every nightl–And then finally, the goddess gave you to me as my mate. And you.. You relished the opportunity to hurt me again! You made me feel like crap!
All along, I thought you were breaking me unintentionally but when you had the chance to, you hurt and broke me, again. To my face!
In another life, I would have endured and ignored it all just to be with you. Hoping that my love for you will affect you in some way, and you will see how true my love is. Maybe in another life, I would play the fool and let you walk all over me and hurt me. Possibly I would have lost myself while trying to find your love, but not in this one! Never in this one, Aiden! I will not do that to myself again.
All you’ve ever done is break me. And yet, you sit there and tell me that you will protect me?? No, you are the monster I need protection from! You! “I spoke as I began to shake with tears, and he tried to touch my face, but I slapped his hand away and dragged myself off the bed.
“You want to know what I saw in my nightmare? It was you. Imagine being terrorized by someone in your dreams and waking up to see that same person. “I said to him as I dragged the coat of my nightdress to cover my body properly.
“You know. You can keep me locked in your castle for all I care, but I will NEVER marry you, Aiden. Never! “I added as I began
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Chapter 6
to make my way to the bathroom.
“Celine…. “He called, but I didn’t answer him. I need to be away from him.
“Get out of my room, Aiden. “I simply said to him with my back turned to him, and as I shut the bathroom door behind me, I rested my back against it and listened.
I heard him walk up to the bathroom door and knock softly.
“Celine… “He called again… softly, but I shut my eyes as I refused to listen. He stood there for a while. I could smell him. He hasn’t accepted my rejection, so the mate pull still binds us.
He stood there in silence for about five minutes, and finally, he left. When I was sure he was gone, the sobs I’d been repressing escaped me.
I thought it would be easy to hate him after all he’s done to me. It ought to be easy to loathe him and want to hurt him.. Why then was a part of me hurting? It hurt so bad, and I could feel it in my chest… In my heart.
I clasped my hands over my mouth as I wept. I couldn’t tell what it was, or why, but I knew something was hurting. And it hurt terribly. Too bad. A part of me was breaking. I could feel it, but I didn’t know what, or why
I hate this feeling, Walking away from and hating Aiden should be easy. Why then does it feel like I’m forcing a massive log through my heart?
Why?
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