Arianna’s heart stutered in her chest, Shed thought–tol, she’d been in supe–that staying away would make him happy. That not seeing. every day would finally give him some peace.
So why did he sound furious
“I promised I wouldn’t get in your way anymore,” she whispered, her wire harely audible through the phone.
The silence stretched so long she thought he’l hung up. Then came that hitter Lough that made her stomach twist intri kenete,
“Oh, you promised? Who the fuck said you get to make the your debt. You think dropping out and pissing away ymit
This wire was ice–cold fury You as me, Arianna. That means I decide how you pay sonirhow makes us even? Like your wasted life is worth my dad’s
Every word felt like a physical blow. She couldn’t breathe, coulli’t think.
“Let me make this crystal clear–we’ve nowhere close to men
The heart monitor beside her bed erupted to frantic beeping. Arianna clutched at the wires attached to her chest, gasping for air that wouldn’t
come.
Jayden’s ce changed instantly, “Jesus–are you in the hospital right now?”
She hung up before he could say another
r word.
Tears streamed down her face as she stared at the maze of tubes and machines keeping her alive. Even if Jayden demanded she come back to school, her body had already made that choice for her. Her heart was giving up, piece by piece, heat by struggling beat.
When the worst of the pain medication for lifted, Arianna reached for her diary with shaking hands
May 21st, 2015
Jayden
God, everything hurts so much. They keep
psticking me with needles and I’m so tired of being brave about it
Yesterday they hooked me up to ECMD–that’s the machine they use when your heart can’t pump blood anymore. The nurses try to be encouraging. but I saw the look in Dr. Martinez’s eyes. When they wheel that thing in, people don’t usually walk back out
But I’m still here. Still fighting.
Everyone keeps saying I have such a strong will to live, but that’s not right. It’s not that I want to live–I just can’t die yet. Not until I clear your dad’s name. Not until I’ve earned the right to see him again.
279 days of loving you. Counting down now.
A week later, Arjazma finally felt strong enough to leave her room. She needed fresh air, needed to see something besides those four white walls that felt more like a tomb every day
She’d barely made it to the hospital lobby when she saw him.
Her traitorous heart did a painful little flip desple everything, “Jayden?” The word came out like a prayer, full of desperate hope she had no right to feel “Did you did you come to see me?”
Jayder’s eyes flicked to the directory behind per–Cardiac Surgery, Intensive Care, Palliative Medicine. His face stayed carefully
“I’m picking up neds for my mom. Each word was ripped, professional like she was a stranger.
The hope died so fast it left her dizzy. “Oh. Right. I should–I’ll get out of your way.”
She turned to leave, but his voice stopped her cold.
*When are you planning to stop this bullshit and come back to school? You’re obvinusly nor dying, so Severyone?”
Arianna went completely ill. When
turned back around, there were tears in her eyes–but somehome, insporcibly she
“You’re worried about me,” she said sohly. It wasn’t a question.
Something flickered across Jayden’s face–panic, maybe, or anger at being caugh
His gaze swept over her,
the watched his temper
Jesus. When had she gotten so thin? The smallest hospital gown long off her like a tent. Her mom’s necklace, which need to rest against her chest, dow raught on her putting collarbone. She looked like she might blow away in a strong wind
The thought sent an unwelcome jolt of fear through him, which only pissed him off more
“Right. You’re like a fucking cockroach–you’ll probably outlive us all just to spice everyo
He walked away before she could respond, leaving her standing there clutching the wall for support.
Back in her room. Arianna had barely settled into bed when her mom burst through the door with tears in her eyes and the first good news they had
in months.
“Tomorrow,” she said, grabbing Arianna’s hands. “They’re reopening the case. You’ll finally get to testify”
For the first time in weeks. Arianna felt something other than despair. “Really? They’ll actually listen?”
The twat morning, she was at the courthouse by seven AM, terrified of missing her chance again. Her body felt like it was held together with tape and stubborn will but she’d crawl to that witness stand if she had to.
At ten o’clock sharp, court was in session.
This time, Arianna stood exactly where she should have been a month ago. Her voice carried clear and strong across the silent courtroom
“I swear under oath that James Hiddleston died saving my life. These men are murderers, not victims,”
When the judge’s gavel came down with the new verdict–murder in the first degree–Arianna pressed both hands to her racing heart and turned to see Mrs. Hiddleston and Jayden in the family section
Their eyes met across the crowded courtroom. Mrs. Hiddleston was crying, but for the first time since the funeral, she looked present. Aware
And Jayden Jayden was staring at Arianna like he was seeing her for the first time
I told you I’d make this right, she thought desperately. I told you I wouldn’t let them destroy his memory.
Outside the courthouse, Jayden helped his mother to their car before walking over to where Arfanna stood with her mom, who tactfully stepped away to give them privacy.
The silence stretched between them like a chasm..
Finally, Jayden spoke. “Thank you.”
Arianna shook her head, tears spilling over. “I should have done this weeks ago. I should have been stronger.”
“Mom’s having a good day,” he said quietly, glancing back at the car. “She told me…” He paused, struggling with the words. “She said I need to stop hating you.”
Arianna’s breath hitched. “Jayden-”
“I don’t hate you anymore,” he said, and somehow that was worse than all his anger had been, His voice was gentle, almost kind. “But every time
at you, I see that alley. I see my dad bleeding out while those animals laughed see my mom losing her mind.”
The words hit her like physical blows. She wrapped her arms around herself trying to hold the pieces together,
“So I think…” He took a shaky breath, “I think it’s better if we don’t see each other anymore. Ever.”
Arianna felt something fundamental break inside her chest–not her heart, that was already destroyed, but something deeper, Her soul maybe
It took everything she had left to hod. “Okay
Jayden looked at her for one is second–really looked at her. like he went memorizing her fare–then walked inway witho
Seventeen year old jayilen had no way of knowing, as he climbed into his car and drove away from the northorse, that he’d post zalil Kentler Arianna Carter for the last floor.
Chapter 5
It took everything she had left to nod. “Okay.”
Jayden looked at her for one more second–really looked at het, like he was memorizing her face–then walked away without another word
Seventeen year old Jayden had no way of knowing, as he climbed into his car and drove away from the courthouse, that he’d just said goodbye to Arianna Carter for the last time.
