The first time CH 23
A week has passed since that night and I haven’t seen Alpha Francesco again since that night. I guess we just two people in pain who share same lone feeling, I can’t disturb him just because I feel lonely. I am used to this loneliness. I sat on the balcony of the small apartment I now shared with Audrey, legs pulled up to my chest, a blanket loosely draped over my shoulders. The soft hum of the city had quieted down, replaced by the occasional rustle of wind and the distant hoot of an owl. The moon, still days from reaching its full form, hung bright and ghostly in the sky, casting silver shadows on the buildings around us. It had been several nights like this. No sleep. Just me, the moonlight, and the growing ache in my chest. Another birthday is near. The full moon. Two events that used to feel like milestones–like something magical. Now, they were only reminders of the night everything changed. The night I got my wolf. The night I was rejected. I clenched my blanket tighter, the cold wind brushing against my bare feet. I’d tried everything to sleep. Tea, warm baths, books, even lying in bed with my headphones in. But nothing worked. My mind was too loud, filled with memories I didn’t want, and pain I couldn’t silence. Sol came out here instead, every night, to let the moon bear witness to my sleepless sorrow. What I didn’t know–what I never noticed–was that I wasn’t alone. Across the rooftop from another shadowed forest, a pair of silver–blue eyes watched me. Since that night, he always come. Night after night. He never interrupted. Never moved. Just sat there, his aura cloaked so carefully not even my wolf–silent as she was–could sense him. He knew pain. He recognized it in the way my shoulders trembled when I thought no one could see, in the way I hugged my knees like I was holding myself together. He knew because he’d felt it too. But I didn’t know that yet. I hadn’t slept in almost a week. Not properly, anyway. Each time I closed my eyes, I felt it–her. The wolf inside me, Miká, still silent. Still unreachable. And it was almost time. Tomorrow was my birthday. The full moon would rise, casting its silver light across Florence, reminding every werewolf of who they were–what they were. But not me. Not since that day. My birthday never mean excitement, even I spend it alone last year so this year will be the same. Once I can’t wait form my birthday to come, because it was the day I had dreamed of receiving my wolf for years, imagining her strong and graceful, our bond instant and powerful. Instead, I got rejection. I got Ruben. My hands trembled as I sat up slowly, pushing the blanket off my legs and slipping on the light sweater I kept near the bed. The soft hum of the city at night floated faintly through the open balcony doors. 1/4 16:54 Sat, 1200 Chapter 23 70% 478 The night air was cool against my bare legs as I stepped onto the balcony. The sky was clear, the stars bright, and the moon—nearly full–hung above me like an all–seeing eye. I gripped the iron railing and let out a shaky breath. It always started with a chill. A cold that had nothing to do with the breeze, but the echo of something deeper. Memory. Pain. Loss. “You don’t belong here.” “I reject you, Ellaine Aurora Rollin…” My fingers tightened on the railing, knuckles turning white. I squeezed my eyes shut, willing the words to disappear. But they never did. Not truly. Night after night, I stood here like this, watching the moon rise higher and feeling the weight of my broken bond like a bruise on my soul. And somewhere deep inside, I could almost feel her. Mika. Like the faint whisper of a dream. A presence lost in fog.. And still, she didn’t speak. … Read more